Lately

This month has been somewhat of a whirlwind. We moved from Auburn to Rexburg, and I'm still pretty stinking homesick. I hear that will pass, though.

On Thursday, Tyler was sick and Macie wasn't feeling well, either, but I'm pretty sure that had more to do with teeth than a virus. Nurse Mommy/Wife to the rescue! What a busy day!! I ended up sleeping (or not sleeping) in the living room with Macie in her pack and play that night, rather than get up and down out of bed all night long. I thought it was going to be a really crappy night, and for the most part it was rough. From about midnight to two was nice for me, though! Macie would only really sleep if I snuggled her. While I was holding my little girl, I couldn't help but feel incredibly blessed. This tiny person smiles whenever I walk into the room; reaches out to me when she wants me; plays with me every day! She can't verbally tell me she loves me, but I know she does. She's almost eight months old and already gives me kisses. She hugs my neck when she gets excited, and she squeals when we play. It's heaven on earth! When I was snuggling her, she opened her eyes, grabbed the collar of my shirt, smiled and fell back to sleep. For all the things that happen that drive me crazy or make me nauseated, those snuggles, smiles, hugs and daily playtime sure make up for it!!

Our entire lives we prepare for motherhood (or fatherhood), but we aren't ever really ready. Heck, I find myself second guessing all the time! How do I  know I'm doing things right? To me, it's when we read books and she does the touch and feel parts. Or when she says, "Ma ma ma ma." Or the times she pulls herself up on my arms and looks at me with a look that says, "Aren't you proud of me, Mom?" and shrieks. Or when it's bedtime, and we read family scriptures. She sits on my lap with her bottle and quietly listens. Most of the time she doesn't fight us when we help her fold her arms. I know she is on the right track, and I know that Tyler and I are doing things the best we can.

On a more fun note, we took Macie to Porter Park for the first time! She wasn't too thrilled with the slides, but she really loved swinging!! She smiled quite a bit, especially when playing with her daddy. She's such a daddy's girl, and it's so fun for me to watch!

Yep...that's about all that's been on my mind lately! 

No, she is not posing! I love how photogenic she is!!!